My Enneagram Journey as a Type 4
After reading a brief description of the 9 enneagram types, I knew right away, even before taking the test, that I would be a Type 4, also know, also known as The Individualist - which is probably so type 4 of me.
Side note: If you have zero idea what the heck I’m talking about (What’s an enneagram? What’s a type 4? What does it all mean?) then please go get the book “The Enneagram Made Simple” and then go take the Enneagram test here.
But I will carry on as if you do have a general idea at least of the enneagram and I suspect, that like me, some of you may even be that Type 4.
I am someone deeply in touch with their inner world, drawn to the unconventional and moved by a strong desire for authenticity. This personality type has played a fundamental role in shaping my life, often serving as a compass guiding my decisions, relationships, and self-awareness.
I've always felt different, as if I was looking at the world through a unique lens. This is a common feeling among Type 4s. We are often described as self-aware, sensitive, and introspective. We are not afraid to explore our feelings and delve into what makes us unique. We crave understanding and desire to be seen for who we truly are.
In my personal life, this has often been a double-edged sword. On one hand, my introspection and emotional honesty have allowed me to form deep, intense connections with people. On the other hand, the constant search for identity and significance can sometimes lead to feelings of melancholy or a sense of being fundamentally flawed when I fail to meet my own expectations. In fact, even as a child, I was convinced that there was something wrong with me and that there was no way anyone could really, truly understand my inner world. It wasn’t until my adult years when I discovered the enneagram that this was actually a personality type! And to be honest, I had mixed feelings about it.
At work, being an Enneagram 4 has allowed me to bring a different perspective to the table. My creativity and distinct way of viewing the world have often led to innovative ideas and solutions. Yet, the same sensitivity that fuels my creativity can also make me more susceptible to criticism and negative feedback. My inner critic was not friendly and held me back in a lot of ways that presented as anxiety and depression, I suspect even as a child.
Over the years, understanding my Enneagram type has helped me navigate these challenges. I've learned to appreciate my creativity and sensitivity, while also recognizing the importance of grounding myself in reality and not getting lost in introspection.
Being an Enneagram 4 has made me who I am - someone who embraces their individuality, values authenticity, and is constantly seeking to understand and be understood. It's a journey with its own set of challenges, but also one that I wouldn't trade for anything else. It's my journey.
Are you on your own Enneagram journey! I’d love to hear about it. Post a comment or get in touch below. I always find learning about people’s inner workings so fascinating and can only help in connecting and learning about each other. And if you haven’t yet found out your enneagram type I would recommend go take it here —> Enneagram Test
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